i do wish i had given myself more time (reprise)

My imagination was superficial in my mind,

a fraudulent attempt to imitate something not mine.

but I do wish I had given myself more time. 

I gently placed a piece of paper over my life, 

see-through only in the specific shade of blue in my eyes. 

my imagination was superficial in my mind.

Maturity sought the altar with my young height,

no time for imagination when you’re running for your life.

but I do wish I had given myself more time. 

Past years congeal into indecipherable scribbles on a page, 

this dark mass brings a blurred feeling of ache that

my imagination was superficial in my mind

I soaked up better ink and learned to hate my own. 

am I worthy of the silhouette that holds truth in mine alone? 

my imagination was superficial in my mind

but I do wish I had given myself more time.

- hope joy <3